I am a bit of a control freak, a "need to do it myself" type that likes things mentally organised. I often use perfectly good energy trying to plan, predict and prevent things that i cannot possibly plan, predict or prevent.
I like things compartmentalized, i live with lists and schedules and i rather like it.
Unfortunately the world does not work this way, it is chaotic, scary and sometimes requires us to surrender. Easier said than done, i know. It is one of the hardest things in the world to let go; of control, of that primal need to ensure safety, love and security.
I have realised in my short span of existence, that surrendering to the unknown is necessary because life is just too big to be placed in a safely padded box.
There are lessons in the out of control moments, the chaotic encounters and in letting go of the need to master it all. A definite sense of freedom and confidence comes from knowing when to cut your losses and move on.
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